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feeling: tired // listening to: professional vengeance - jane remover, CISRAC - ninajirachi

first of all! omg i've spent more than a week on this, coding this site on jekyll is most of what i've been doing since the 21st. i'm SO happy with it!! it's busted as hell and not optimized for anything and i love it so much. i can NOT get that title bar to behave on most pages, and i fudged so much layout stuff by filling some pages with text or cutting down text. alignment and images act weird while pages are loading. and i love it i made it all by myself. i'm so excited to make more pages and fill out my resources page more. i'm gonna make another page with links to fun websites and games!!

learning YAML and liquid has been so interesting. YAML has been interesting because it's allegedly designed to be intuitive, but it was NOT to me. maybe it's because i have have child-of-a-computer-engineer brain, so i had to adjust how i think about programming & related languages to really start to wrap my head around it? though looking past just basic documentation and into people talking about YAML i found this post by Ruud van Asseldonk (in case the link ever moves: "The yaml document from hell" 11 January 2023) talking about the complexities of YAML and the ways it's unintuitive/difficult to work with. a lot of the points brought up aren't relevant to any of the work i've been doing with YAML, but it's an interesting read and it makes me feel seen with some of the frustrations/confusion i've had learning it :P . liquid is neat, it took me some work to start feeling like i actually understood how it works rather than just essentially copy+pasting stuff and hoping it would work LOL. definitely wouldn't think of myself as fluent with either, but i didn't know YAML or liquid even existed before i started doing this! this is so fun. i almost forgot learning is supposed to be fun, or at least fulfilling when fun is less of an option.

i turned 28 yesterday. sometimes it seems like the older i get, the younger i feel. but i think that's a good thing. in a lot of ways, i had to grow up pretty fast, and i lost a lot of things i associate with youth that i think are good to hold onto as an adult. i've been re-learning how to enjoy learning (again, this web design stuff has been so fun!), and how to accept failure without giving up. idk, it's more than that, too. something shifted for me recently. something about my mindset, looking at the world in a way that i used to and stopped being able to for a while. something i've been chasing for i think the last 5 years is finally making its way back to me, or i'm finally making my way back to it. it's nice. it feels good.

alright, i think it's time to start looking at documentation to figure out the smoothest way to get this version of the site live on neocities :3 . i'm also gonna back up the site as it is now before actually trying to push this version, just in case i mess it up royally somehow LOL. and, yknow, archival!